Flow Naturally Forward
Selling my condo took much longer than expected, for multiple reasons, which was lovely in some regards, and challenging in others. It was lovely in that it provided me plenty of time to spend in Sonoma, seeing friends and fully enjoying the area before moving away. It made for a nice, slow transition. But that was also one of the difficulties. See, I’ve found this decision to sell my home quite challenging. Even though it makes perfect sense to do so, it’s still brought up a lot of doubt and fear in me. It required a lot of courage to quit my job, commit to moving and to begin selling my place. And even after putting all of these steps into motion, my brain still tries to drag me back to “safety”—to remain in the known instead of venturing into the unknown. To stay instead of leave. Over and over again I’ve had to re-convince myself that I’m making the right decision.
Life doesn’t always go as planned, but I was hoping that the sale process would be lightning fast. So fast that I wouldn’t even have the chance to reconsider. But it instead dragged on, giving me all the time in the world to ruminate, overanalyze and question my decisions. Instead of just being courageous once and then done, I found myself having to be courageous over and over again. It felt like the bandaid was being removed slowly, one arm hair at a time, instead of the easy way—all at once.
But, I do believe that life has a way of giving us not what we want, but what we need. And I fully expect that with time, all I’ll remember is how lovely it was to have extra time with my friends. Honestly, it’s already happening. The new chapter has officially started and the truth is that I cannot wait to see where this life takes me.
“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
-Lao Tzu
